Late 20s (username not for age) I used to have tiers of friends in HS and a lot in college. I put a lot of effort into it being a glue between people. Overtime

Late 20s (username not for age) I used to have tiers of friends in HS and a lot in college. I put a lot of effort into it being a glue between people. Overtime I tried less and less to do that. Even pulling inwards like hiding in my room during parties. Now I have 3 close friends. Real friends. Crazy how you change over time. I had a best friend but one day we just split. My current friends I do most of the engaging. Since I'm always online/wfh. I'm also a loner/not an extrovert. So yeah... I know you could try to change but I am the looks down at the ground, shy person now. Before I was a jackass which could be good because I was not as limited. Now I just have this constant questioning if I did something cringe. There is a messed up thought. Pretty much all of our interaction is a chat/text. Since we all live in different states/but we were around each other during childhood. Aside from occasional photos... It's almost like you could replace them with bots since the medium is electronic.