Medication really helped me, and combined with (zazen) meditation I have days where I feel like 'normal' people. Working up to meditating for ~30 minute sessio

Medication really helped me, and combined with (zazen) meditation I have days where I feel like 'normal' people. Working up to meditating for ~30 minute sessions (alone or in groups) forced me to face my worst nightmare: sitting still against my will. Gradually, the physical burning sensation to 'escape' the mental torture of doing nothing calmed down. Further into my practice, the same happened for the monkey mind constantly thinking about shiny things. On good days I can attend long meetings and not lose it, remember chores, calm the chatter in my head, avoid playing mind games to keep myself occupied (eg. "can I cross the road in less than 5, 4, 3, 2 ..."). Medication helped to bump me over to the other side, and meditation has helped me stay there.