There's a lot of chicken and egg notions to it. Formative years controlled by this can generate certain personalities, so it's hard to disassociate who you are

There's a lot of chicken and egg notions to it. Formative years controlled by this can generate certain personalities, so it's hard to disassociate who you are from the difficulties. I think of it like driving a car with busted brakes. You might be able to learn how to cope with that, and maybe you end up being really good at drifting thanks to this! Suddenly you treat the underlying issue, fix your brakes, and it feels like you've lost some superpower. But really you still have these skills somewhere! And you objectively have more control, it's just that the there's going to be a learning curve to find this again as the feedback loop is different now. I like being able to go all out in hyperfocus mode, but I also like being able to have some impulse control for when it's nice to have. After adjusting I think I can do both under treatment.