You get better at what you practice. It sounds like you don't want to keep practicing 'work-y' stuff. You'll need to sit down and puzzle out what it is that y

You get better at what you practice. It sounds like you don't want to keep practicing 'work-y' stuff. You'll need to sit down and puzzle out what it is that you want to be doing with the little time we all have on this planet. It may take a few months to try to figure that out for yourself, likely it'll take the rest of your life. There's just oodles of advice on how to do that online. Two bits of advice there: involve close family/friends in the conversation and involve your religious/spiritual practice too. You'll be more successful and it'll be more fulfilling. It's a heck of a journey and you're going to have a hard but worthwhile time with it. Per the PhD stuff, read this: https://acoup.blog/2021/10/01/collections-so-you-want-to-go-to-grad-school-in-the-academic-humanities/ https://acoup.blog/2021/10/01/collections-so-you-want-to-go-... It's tailored to the humanities side, but all my STEMy PhD friends said that it's very very similar to their experiences.