Take a breath and try to relax and enjoy the emptiness, until you feel comfortable enough to discover new things in your life. It sounds like your life has bee

Take a breath and try to relax and enjoy the emptiness, until you feel comfortable enough to discover new things in your life. It sounds like your life has been filled by (valid) fears that have driven you to work hard all the time. Now that you have moments when you don't have life threatening fears swooping down on you, adapt. Don't try to find new fears to fill that void. Deal with being in the new situation of finally having a choice about what you do. It sounds like you are on the cusp of living your own life, which might be bewildering at first, but ultimately, really awesome. Good luck!