I have been going on a similar journey. My childhood was trauma over and over again. I learned to cope but those skills no longer serve me at 45. It seems you

I have been going on a similar journey. My childhood was trauma over and over again. I learned to cope but those skills no longer serve me at 45. It seems you have been much more literal about "connecting with your inner child". I suppose there are many ways to do this. Good luck with your journey. I appreciate the struggle.