Hang in. I commend your coping mechanism too. I'm in what sounds like a similar situation, and its the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. I've thought about

Hang in. I commend your coping mechanism too. I'm in what sounds like a similar situation, and its the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. I've thought about suicide in my past, but since then have lost friends to suicide and other senseless reasons. I know somehow now that it is definitely not The Way, regardless of remaining responsibilities. There is just too much awesome shit in the world to leave early, and suicide is a decision that will prevent you from realizing that forever. It sounds like you could use someone to talk to. Catch me on Skype any time, my account is "alandipert". Or e-mail/Jabber me at alan@dipert.org. Instead of saying "good luck," I will say: I don't know you, but I care about you, and would hate to know you went this way. Talk to someone you trust, or me, if you feel it coming on. It's not worth it. -Alan