I would say, keep writing things with it on the side. Maybe it will click like it does for many. For me syntax in other languages is noisy and annoying, but I c

I would say, keep writing things with it on the side. Maybe it will click like it does for many. For me syntax in other languages is noisy and annoying, but I cannot write lisp full time. I am building my own (as you do) just to be able to code some outside my regular work. Also; I would forget about macros generally. In my opinion they should be used in very rare cases where other solutions are not pretty enough or really do not work for the usecase and these are rare in my experience.