Do you mind if I ask — how long ago was this? I've flirted with a couple of similar experiences and come away with a very similar feeling — "something really d

Do you mind if I ask — how long ago was this? I've flirted with a couple of similar experiences and come away with a very similar feeling — "something really deep inside of me was fixed" — but I find a lot of it fades away after a while. Not all of it, but it definitely feels like 2 steps forward and 1 step back (or, more accurately, like 100 steps forward and 99 steps back). Lately, it's all just a distant memory. I remember the objective fact that I was that person a few years ago, that I explored the universe while laying on the floor in some dude's living room (how's that for an objective fact?), that I experienced actual happiness for the first time in my life, that I managed to stay genuinely happy for months afterward. But it all faded away. I've wondered ever since if folks who manage to maintain that sense of wonder afterwards do something different, or approach it differently.