took psychedelics a few times and learned something every time. Guided meditation can be bliss - when u want to sleep and the patterns don't go away, the medit

took psychedelics a few times and learned something every time. Guided meditation can be bliss - when u want to sleep and the patterns don't go away, the meditation will carry you into the underbelly of your consciousness. The voice becomes light that sometimes shines like rays into the underwater forests or cave systems of the subconscious. I once did some hypnosis where you meet your inner guardian and explore the inside of your subconscious. You're allowed to ask 3 questions, I wasn't prepared. Having experienced violence in my past I asked the wrong questions and the guardian threw me out. The trip ended there at the same moment and I felt miserable. I learned that you can't force answers. Whenever I took something I got headaches, these became more weird over time. My teeth were screaming for help, I asked them what they wanted and they told me they didn't want to be alone. Turns out that I got nerd neck and that's cutting off the oxygen to my face. Now I can feel it, my nose goes cold, headache starts, eyes feel weird, the inside of my mouth is cold. Haven't found the right diagnosis yet, but it likes me to drink warm beverages, sports, yoga, breathing exercises and cold water showers - can't do those when sober. I learned that my place is no fun or cozy, it's a wasteland when sober. Trying to make it better. No idea, I'd like to have some low budget low energy automated system that generates music, something to decorate time with. McDonald's Toilet can be the most calming and peaceful place on earth. Don't talk to conspiracy theorists or esoteric ppl when high. Have your dog around, they're wonderful guides. The hardware is boss, stop micro-managing. The list goes on and on... I do some art, but I don't know how to catch all this