It's okay that your body is telling you some things that your brain won't hear. This is a survival mechanism and hopefully will spur you into a better place. B

It's okay that your body is telling you some things that your brain won't hear. This is a survival mechanism and hopefully will spur you into a better place. But you have to be willing to change. YMMV, but the first thing I would do is stop doing things that don't work. Change your environment and change the people you see. Office life not your thing? Try construction or landscaping. Determined to stick it out? Make selfless service and love you primary values. Seek to hear and serve. Psychologists can't help? Try talking to an older relative, religious leader, or try an altogether different kind of therapy. Get involved in a group doing something. Anything. Play or coach a sport. Volunteer at your local homeless shelter. Get involved at a local church and help with parking, food pantries. Bake cookies for your neighbors and just show up and say hi. Don't escape with drugs, sex, video games, etc... and don't kill yourself with self-judgment with the plethora of readily available self-help productivity porn on YouTube either. Lastly, you aren't alone, many people suffer this way, myself included. There are a lot of different groups online dealing with this problem. Personally I've found a lot of help from the likes of John Verveake's Meaning Crisis and Johnathan Pageau's Symbolic World. It has helped me greatly to be able to see things that are bigger than you and be involved in them. It helps a lot.