I think I shall never be aesthetically inclined enough to know what this painting means, it doesn't mean anything more to me no matter which side is right side

I think I shall never be aesthetically inclined enough to know what this painting means, it doesn't mean anything more to me no matter which side is right side up. I really wish I could see it, but I never do. I (think) I can see it when I see other abstract stuff that at least has a "form" that exists in nature but stuff like this I just don't get it and I wish that I could.