This sounds like that kind of void people tend to fill with god back in the days. This is what Nitzshe meant when said "god is dead". It doesn't mean you have

This sounds like that kind of void people tend to fill with god back in the days. This is what Nitzshe meant when said "god is dead". It doesn't mean you have to or even can follow religious path (it doesn't work this way), but it may be that you lost deep intimate contact with your inner self and it's desires.