Yes I feel that because there are people close to me who think I manipulated the psychiatrist to get the diagnosis to excuse my behavior. They feel I am smart e

Yes I feel that because there are people close to me who think I manipulated the psychiatrist to get the diagnosis to excuse my behavior. They feel I am smart enough to do that. They can't experience what it is like to be me so they can't know and I excuse them for that. I use Jesus' phrase "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing" to get through it.