Taking possession of my life. At some point in my early 20s I realized that I had, "taken the keys.". I was now making myself, and my life, who and what I was g

Taking possession of my life. At some point in my early 20s I realized that I had, "taken the keys.". I was now making myself, and my life, who and what I was going to be, for good or ill. It's always tempting to relate the individual decisions, but they didn't really matter. This was the actual feeling/thought that led to slow, steady improvement. Being a "physical" person. Again in my early 20s, I let take root the feelings, thoughts that I didn't need to worry much about my, "physical" life. That I could just ignore things like fitness or health. In my early 40s I became aware of just how foolish a decision I had made. As I re-engaged with physical activities, I realized just how much I had missed it, and missed out on rewarding and fulfilling stuff. 10 years later, having the idea and feeling, that I do "physical" stuff, is the number one thing that helps me move through, negative feelings, anxiety, depression. I don't work out everyday and I still don't do very well with eating, but I have the feeling those are things that I engage with, and work on, and it's a huge help.