I just want the option. I was a child. I never signed up in the business of dealing death and trauma unto others and myself. I would have loved to have had a do

I just want the option. I was a child. I never signed up in the business of dealing death and trauma unto others and myself. I would have loved to have had a doctor offer a hit of something to dull the imprinting of my worst day into my memories, emotions, and thought processes. Am I supposed to live my life warning others about risks they don't care they are taking? I sometimes just want to be normal and forget what happened, and join the others in not thinking about people getting killed as part of my every day life.