Not sure if it helps but consider that you may not have enjoyed the path you didn't take as much as you think you would. It is possible that you would have res

Not sure if it helps but consider that you may not have enjoyed the path you didn't take as much as you think you would. It is possible that you would have resented the inability to work the way you actually did with all sorts of long lasting negative effects. Accept that decisions made by younger you were appropriate for that person and move on.