My wife and I cant have kids. Cancer medicine, they wouldn't give it to her at such a young age unless one of us was sterile. Mine was far easier. I wrestle

My wife and I cant have kids. Cancer medicine, they wouldn't give it to her at such a young age unless one of us was sterile. Mine was far easier. I wrestle with this as well sometimes. I see myself turning into a Picard type, focusing on my work, my mentoring, my stoic demeanor, and being a secret, blubbering mess once a year when I see a Christmas tree in the neighbor's window. Then I'll tuck my shirt down, tell myself there's no time for such nonsense, and carry on. A trick I use to fall asleep, when it's really getting to me, is to consider that there's a very good chance my hypothetical kid would be a jerk that doesn't like me.