Like other posters, I think there are other things going on here. Good on you for doing the work in therapy. Fix (or make serious progress on) those things be

Like other posters, I think there are other things going on here. Good on you for doing the work in therapy. Fix (or make serious progress on) those things before bringing a child into this world. It isn't too late, biologically speaking, and wont be for a few years yet. In VHCOL coastal cities it is not unusual at all for couples to have first children at your age or a little later. But if you're burnt out at your job and having panic attacks walking by playgrounds you aint ready.