I am currently taking depression medication. Have been taking it for the last five years. It may or may not be helping me. I did try to taper it off with help f

I am currently taking depression medication. Have been taking it for the last five years. It may or may not be helping me. I did try to taper it off with help from a doctor, but I literally became crazed from withdrawal. I went back to the same dosage as before. At this point, I’m afraid I’m stuck with the medication and I’ll have no way of getting off it. Who knows what it is doing to my brain chemistry?