> Whereas, I find myself going for almost academic perfection (i.e read all docs first) / mastery. Really procrastinate hard when I hit the wall and just hope f

> Whereas, I find myself going for almost academic perfection (i.e read all docs first) / mastery. Really procrastinate hard when I hit the wall and just hope for things to click. And then just get sleepy when I do start reading code. This means if I'm in my space I'm super productive, but anytime I come across something I don't have an expert level knowledge I come to complete halt. I had this problem too. I'm working on getting over it by writing dumbshit stuff that I need at work. Mourn the perfect crystalline structure you have in your head as to How It Should Work, and understand that Good Enough now beats the tar out of Perfect never. Eventually you'll start improving the dumbshit stuff bit by bit, and as you write more stuff you'll get asymptotically closer and closer to the perfect thing you imagined once, but can realistically never be realized. Good luck!