Amazingly my story is almost exactly like yours! The only small difference in the end for me was to stop counting entirely at some point. I realized that at th

Amazingly my story is almost exactly like yours! The only small difference in the end for me was to stop counting entirely at some point. I realized that at that point counting was almost counterproductive for me. I feel like counting sort of gives a negative hint to the psyche that I’m missing something from my life for N years now Today I can’t even tell how many years it has been. It’s a bit of a blur. More than 15 probably. But I don’t miss it a single but.