The only reason you continue to do it despite the inevitable price you have to pay is because it alters your mood positively in the short term. You have two pr

The only reason you continue to do it despite the inevitable price you have to pay is because it alters your mood positively in the short term. You have two problems: 1. Desire for instant gratification 2. Lack of other things that alter your mood positively You can work on both in parallel. Exercise solves both at the same time. The last meta thing to keep you focused on longer term healthy routes of solving this problem is to realize that: 1. You’re weak minded if you keep giving into instant gratification and should strive to be a stronger person 2. You have a deficit of things that give you positive emotion which is decreasing your quality of life There are a lot of good ideas in this thread on what could replace drinking for you but you need to seek what works for you.