I never felt real acceptance from my parents. Which made the first woman I fell in love with, who was very beautiful and sweet and totally accepting of me, near

I never felt real acceptance from my parents. Which made the first woman I fell in love with, who was very beautiful and sweet and totally accepting of me, nearly impossible to get away from once I realized that she was unsuitable for me to make a permanent (and sole) life partner. Cue many years spent seeing her on and off while trying to reclaim the same spark elsewhere and fucking up other perfectly-good (if never quite the same, and certainly less intense) relationships. Unfortunately it seems that a lot of my… sexuality (this word seems like a vast oversimplification in this case) got tied up with her and is basically now gone, and I’m still processing this years later. I did retain the self-confidence she gave me though, but the cost…