Very interesting. I'm very much struggling with some thoughts about life at the moment. I often keep thinking about how to be 'awesome', how I want to grow, i

Very interesting. I'm very much struggling with some thoughts about life at the moment. I often keep thinking about how to be 'awesome', how I want to grow, improve, be more interesting, be better at such and such. In fact this is likely why I am on Hacker news, to find insights and articles to help with this, which it can be one of the best places for. As a result, I then often write down a lot of quotes, things from articles, ideas, questions etc, which end up in my productivity system or note taking app. I try to write down a lot of my thoughts, work through then, find different questions to ask etc, but although I am very drawn to this because I don't know what else to do, I am not sure how useful it has been. It's overwhelming me, because I just go round in circles and I still don't really know what to do and things still don't really make a lot of sense to me. I also think I it's making me boring, because i'm spending more time in the system and i'm being more systematic, i'm not doing anything that exciting. But i don't really know what is the solution, if I just abandon all of that, I won't be very organised, as i'm terrible at this naturally and I feel like i'll just let my life drift by, i'll wake up in the morning, not sure of what to do, so i'll just succumb to wasting time online. I'll have a think about this, but I think something to consider would be a way to cut back on all of this, but first i'd have to find something that makes more sense to me.