Some weeks 20, some weeks 80. Going with the flow. For years I tried to force myself. Work longer hours, be more productive, get more done, yadda yadda. Don't

Some weeks 20, some weeks 80. Going with the flow. For years I tried to force myself. Work longer hours, be more productive, get more done, yadda yadda. Don't know about others but when I'm being forced -- by myself or others -- I automagically go into "stale mode" and refuse to do anything other than the most menial motions. Haven't really found a 'fix' for this but accepted that I don't work under compulsion (even self-imposed) and now go with the flow. I found that's the only choice left for me, other than completely resign from self-dependent work. After a relaxed summer and too much freelancing before that for the last 1-2 years I'm now only carefully and slowly going back to building stuff, and only up to the level that I enjoy doing it. It's been going up steadily ever since. But still a far cry from 100 hours a week, to be honest.