I feel for you if you feel "old" as a dev, you've internalized some form of ageism. Some of us have careers the same age as you. Maybe some jobs didn't material

I feel for you if you feel "old" as a dev, you've internalized some form of ageism. Some of us have careers the same age as you. Maybe some jobs didn't materialize for ageism for such ancients, but jobs are there. What companies do you want to work for? Do you have any domain specialties? Where are you looking? The fact that you have your own drive for learning things is a plus. Companies want explorers and self-trainers. School's long enough ago to be irrelevant. Make something that works and build a github portfolio. You'll be fine, maybe after a period of anxiety.