I've only ever seen one of his videos, some time after he died. He was at some vietnamese food place, and looked incredibly uncomfortable - with being on camera

I've only ever seen one of his videos, some time after he died. He was at some vietnamese food place, and looked incredibly uncomfortable - with being on camera, with existing in his body. A big, tall guy, hunched up shoulders, tight concerned mouth. He looked like he was doing his best impression of a mouse. I have some of the same tendencies toward inwardness and discomfort. He reminds me to fight for myself. I don't want to end up like him.