Getting on medication is one of the top 3 decisions I've made in my life. I had a serious crisis in 2018, and while I didn't attempt suicide, I really wanted to

Getting on medication is one of the top 3 decisions I've made in my life. I had a serious crisis in 2018, and while I didn't attempt suicide, I really wanted to die and could feel it moving in that direction. I went to a psychiatrist recommended by my primary-care doc. He met with me a few times, recommended "The Happiness Trap" and a few techniques for distancing, but it wasn't helpful. He then recommended medication, and I was super-cynical, because the guy hadn't been helpful otherwise. After another particularly awful day where I stayed home in bed, I decided to give the prescription he'd written me a shot. I felt it working by two weeks in. It was very noticeable. My mother passed away about two months after I started, and I often wonder how badly I would've handled that if I'd not been using this medication. My doc told me it works well for about 1/3 of the people who take it, works a little for another 1/3, and doesn't work at all for the remainder, who must then hop around to other drugs till they find one that sticks. Lots of people are against medication, and I get that mindset. There's also evidence that comes out occasionally that says "SSRIs don't work" or something similar, and I don't really care -- there's no doubt in my mind that it's working _for me_. It's very night-and-day and I wish I'd had this from high school onward.