Sorry to hear about your situation. Try activities, sports that get you out there meeting people. People wrongly assume that introverted people cope fine alone

Sorry to hear about your situation. Try activities, sports that get you out there meeting people. People wrongly assume that introverted people cope fine alone ( and introverted people also wrongly assume this). I felt myself spiralling downwards over covid lockdowns, and what I needed was to regularly get out the house and mix with other people. For me, it doesn’t have to be loads, but it has to be semi regular. Also try and get outside for a walk once in the morning and once at lunchtime. I find the combination or walk + sunlight + tiny bit of social interaction buying a coffee / lunch makes a substantial difference to my mood. It’s a tough situation you’re in, and I’m sure many of us have had similar thoughts , aside from therapy, the only advice I can offer is sunlight + walking + some regular social interaction. Find the little joys in life, like a sunrise , or trees and birds.