I don't know your situation enough to add much. I can only talk to myself. Walking away is forever. When you are sick and alone. When you want to share memorie

I don't know your situation enough to add much. I can only talk to myself. Walking away is forever. When you are sick and alone. When you want to share memories about the restaurant you used to go to. About so many shared moments. Divorce is called one of the small deaths for a reason. It is a death, of everything that was, and of all future hopes and dreams that existed in that relationship. Forever gone. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WRcaSIMxfYg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WRcaSIMxfYg What you feel EVERYONE does. Realize this isn't unique to your situation, or that some other 'ideal' situation you dream about will be any different. You aren't going to feel 100% happy with your situation, ever. It's ok to buy a lottery ticket and fantasize about some unrealistic perfect life. It's probably not OK to quit putting in time and your job because your lottery fantasy seems better/easier. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mlfefNP8cw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mlfefNP8cw https://www.theatlantic.com/sexes/archive/2012/12/the-truth-of-this-is-40-its-actually-not-weird-to-want-your-spouse-to-die/266479/ https://www.theatlantic.com/sexes/archive/2012/12/the-truth-...