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> "I remember him telling me one of his only regrets is not finding heroin sooner, it was the only thing that made him happy. [...] More than anything, I wish m

by pavlov 4y ago

> "I remember him telling me one of his only regrets is not finding heroin sooner, it was the only thing that made him happy. [...] More than anything, I wish my parents had kept going back and hadn't given up and listened to the advice the government workers gave, which was that some people are beyond help" Is there something specific you think your parents could have done? It seems like an extraordinarily tall order to externally replace the only source of happiness in someone's life without their co-operation.

honkdaddy 4y ago
That's a good question, I don't really know. I guess I just have a hard time accepting that when I was a teenager, my folks were aware that our uncle (my god father) was 40min away using every day, but as an extended family we'd agreed we were no longer going to be trying to change that. I think it was decided they'd rather him at least out of harms way and at peace than him going back to prison. I'd probably end up the exact same way. I was hospitalized recently and was given hydrocodone for the first time in my life, I begged the doctor not to give it to me again, regardless of my pain levels, because it was the nicest I remember feeling in years and immediately just wanted more and more. Opiates terrify me like nothing else, largely because I know that if the circumstances were different, I'd probably be telling my future god son the same thing, that there's no better feeling on earth. It's absolutely a tall order, maybe even an impossible one. I really don't know what I or my parents could have done differently, I just wish Tim was still here.
- pavlov 4y ago
  Thank you for the reply. This is not an addiction I’m at all familiar with (just plain old alcoholics in my family), so it’s very informative and helpful. Deeply sorry for your loss.

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> "I remember him telling me one of his only regrets is not finding heroin sooner, it was the only thing that made him happy. [...] More than anything, I wish m

by pavlov 4y ago

honkdaddy 4y ago
That's a good question, I don't really know. I guess I just have a hard time accepting that when I was a teenager, my folks were aware that our uncle (my god father) was 40min away using every day, but as an extended family we'd agreed we were no longer going to be trying to change that. I think it was decided they'd rather him at least out of harms way and at peace than him going back to prison. I'd probably end up the exact same way. I was hospitalized recently and was given hydrocodone for the first time in my life, I begged the doctor not to give it to me again, regardless of my pain levels, because it was the nicest I remember feeling in years and immediately just wanted more and more. Opiates terrify me like nothing else, largely because I know that if the circumstances were different, I'd probably be telling my future god son the same thing, that there's no better feeling on earth. It's absolutely a tall order, maybe even an impossible one. I really don't know what I or my parents could have done differently, I just wish Tim was still here.
- pavlov 4y ago
  Thank you for the reply. This is not an addiction I’m at all familiar with (just plain old alcoholics in my family), so it’s very informative and helpful. Deeply sorry for your loss.