It sounds to me like you want THC. I don't know what side of the law that is, where you're at. I'd find a way to dose sublingually or something that you are ok

It sounds to me like you want THC. I don't know what side of the law that is, where you're at. I'd find a way to dose sublingually or something that you are okay with. You want to be able to reliably dose an amount that gets you the mellowness, so edibles are a bad idea (unreliable). You can vape it. It's not smoky, and the smell only lasts a few seconds. Easy not to go too hard, since results are near-instant. It won't last too long (especially if you build any tolerance)--a couple hours max, usually. Combine with music. I have many things I do to feel good, many of which are mentioned here. The only things that have ever given me a true buzz are alcohol and THC. I have not explored any other chemicals besides caffeine, but I have tried a great many things like sleep patterns, dietary changes, meditation, running, music, etc. Caffeine is probably next-closest, and working out can give a real "glow" sometimes. I can also get a bit of a euphoric feeling just being present in some situations--family gatherings and concerts come to mind--but not on command.