You are not alone. In my experience, there’s a language of mathematics that makes an almost comically strong attempt to make itself inaccessible through jargon

You are not alone. In my experience, there’s a language of mathematics that makes an almost comically strong attempt to make itself inaccessible through jargon, single-letter variable names, and an over reliance on symbolic manipulation. If you talk to most mathematicians or algorithm researchers, you’ll find that they are some of the most intuitive people you’ll ever meet, and they use visualization and other intuitive techniques all the time. And then the classes are all about symbol manipulation. I swear there are millions of people out there who could be mathematicians but just couldn’t get excited by all the symbol manipulation.