I took care of my elder grandparents for the last 7 years of their lives. It was probably the worst thing I've ever had to go through in my life. There is nothi

I took care of my elder grandparents for the last 7 years of their lives. It was probably the worst thing I've ever had to go through in my life. There is nothing as soul crushing as watching people die in slow motion. It's been 3 years since they passed and I'm still a fucking wreck. I've had loved ones pass before in my life but its not the same when its someone close that suddenly passes vs elder care. My grandfather was a strong man, I remember hiking Pikes Peak with him when I was in high school. He beat me up the mountain, and I wasn't exactly out of shape at the time. Near the end his parkinsons was so bad I had to feed and change his diapers. Watching someone go from being the strongest and most independent person I've ever met to someone embarrassed to tears while I'm changing his diapers. That's not the same type of impact on loss.