I'm hard-pressed to understand why someone at your level takes things as they are. If something's wrong, why not fix it? Wouldn't that be better for you and f

I'm hard-pressed to understand why someone at your level takes things as they are. If something's wrong, why not fix it? Wouldn't that be better for you and for people in positions like yours, and everyone around you who is also suffering? When you get to emotions as strong as "hate" and judgments as wide as "every minute of it", it's likely the proximal problem is you. You're triggered and don't know clearly what bothers you. Coding and design problems are tractable even when the problem is large. You get used to success. Organizational problems can also be tractable, but often they are not, regardless of scale or complexity. This makes them very, very frustrating, particularly to those used to success. You might develop better insight using analogies to organic systems. E.g., how to kill something that's growing out of control? (like cancer: poison, burn, cut, or tag). How to mitigate toxicity? (Wall it off.) How to handle complex decisions in urgent situations? (segregate system-1 quick heuristics from system-2 analytics) Think in organic systems because it is like maintenance programming: you don't have the option to do the right thing (and kill the golden goose); you have to make do. Only the founders get a greenfield experience at building management culture; everyone else through successive generations of the company has to spin straw into gold. In management you will die if you just reflect and respond to the needs around you, or reinforce or oppose the groupthink. Managing amidst the chaos is the opposite of being the responsive IC delivering value to the customer. You have to go into your own space, get your own zen calm, and discover the one point of leverage you want to attack. Then build defenses for everything else, and attack that point as gently and skillfully as you can, using the suffering of the problem itself as your super-power. If it's really bad, then everyone will embrace your solution. Have faith.