I'm jealous of people who manage to have an almost normal life. I live in a constant latent distress who might be devastating me. My 1 year old daughter had a g

I'm jealous of people who manage to have an almost normal life. I live in a constant latent distress who might be devastating me. My 1 year old daughter had a good time by being with her parents 100% of her time but I'm very concerned about her future, both health and mental wise as she will soon need to make friends and have a social life. I try not to go out and when I do I avoid crowded places and keep far from people without a mask even when outside. I'm sure I'm transmitting my distress to my family. Furthermore, the feeling that my behaviour is not understood and judged extreme by people around me, including colleagues and relatives and maybe my wife, is making me feel more isolated. I think that this only happens to the western world, where people misunderstood freedom for something else. I have recently been to South Korea and I felt much more at ease there, as for example not wearing a mask in public is considered socially deplorable and you might be reprimanded by other people. This might be the first time I stated it explicitly, but I think that though not having been infected yet, probably my life got ruined irreversibly.