Great story. I have a similar one with swimming. When I started swimming laps, I'd always come at it hard, and I'd sometimes panic, lose my breathing, and feel

Great story. I have a similar one with swimming. When I started swimming laps, I'd always come at it hard, and I'd sometimes panic, lose my breathing, and feel like I was going to drown, and have to stop completely. And it was terrifying. Eventually I learned to a) slow down at the start, and b) to recognize when I was inching toward the redline, and slow down while still swimming to avoid the panic stop. I felt, and still feel, that there was an important life lesson there: to be attuned to yourself, to make conscious decisions about your behavior based on that awareness, optimize for 'harmony', or 'least disruption'. There are some psychological things going on, too, like shame, guilt, etc that seem really silly now but felt real and were pushing me toward the wrong conclusions!