You are having a really bad time finding new work. Your attitude is clearly in a low, nasty place. These things are related. Fix one and it'll likely fix both.

You are having a really bad time finding new work. Your attitude is clearly in a low, nasty place. These things are related. Fix one and it'll likely fix both. The stoic thing helps me with the attitude. I stop assuming that I am owed anything from the world, or at least try to. That means every breath without pain is a gift to treasure. When I deal with other people from there, with simple gratitude at being alive and present, they respond to it. They see someone they want to work with.