Reading this post it feels like I’m the one who wrote it… to that end, I am 21 years old and I constantly find myself thinking and feeling regretful that I didn

Reading this post it feels like I’m the one who wrote it… to that end, I am 21 years old and I constantly find myself thinking and feeling regretful that I didn’t spend more of my teenage years pursuing my ambitions (of which there are lot), and building my skill set… instead, just like you, I spent my childhood playing video games in my room, watching YouTube, not doing my school work on top of that, etc… I was more or less a couch potato. This issue isn’t so black and white also, let’s assume a hypothetical scenario where you did everything you regret not doing now… would you feel content? Or would you feel like you should’ve spent more of that time doing more those “pointless” activities. Nobody knows the answer to those questions, and you probably don’t either… but what’s important to remember is that life has at least taught me that balance is extremely important, not only for your mental health and fitness, but especially to ensuring long term success. I still struggle with this line of thinking to this day, and I can’t say I’m any closer to a resolution. But here’s what I do know; Self pity is cancerous… it starts out being about one thing, but if you keep obsessing over it then it will slowly but surely consume your life, and you won’t know until it’s already happened… then it becomes an addiction. Don’t be like me, learn to forgive yourself and be reasonable about your expectations. If I were you (which in way I am haha) I would focus on getting a win under my belt, no matter how small… an easy and highly rewarding technical win is spinning up your own Stable Diffusion instance on a cloud GPU vm or if you have a decent GPU run it locally (decent = 8GB> vRAM), if you don’t know it’s an open source version of DALL-E 2 that was released a few days ago and setting it up is fairly straightforward and it will help you feel that wonder of using new technology, and getting some work done at the same time.—perfect avenue if you’re trying to kickstart yourself into CS.