Nothing you do is pointless if you had fun doing it. Think of life as a landscape to explore with peaks, plains and valleys. Every person gets their own uniquel

Nothing you do is pointless if you had fun doing it. Think of life as a landscape to explore with peaks, plains and valleys. Every person gets their own uniquely generated landscape. Life goes in phases based on age, events, crises etc. At each phase you need to figure out what is important for _you_. It could be a well defined purpose or it could be something vague like being happy or being with someone. You do your best to make that thing work and reward yourself for your efforts not for results. Learn from failures and celebrate the fuck out of successes. Within your limits, if possible, help people around you accomplish what they set out to do. Life can take weird turns and luck plays a big part. It is self-inflicted suffering to evaluate your past or your present based on things that you didn't set out to do. So, like most of the comments say don't measure your life with others' accomplishments or failures. Looks like you had a fantastic childhood playing games that you wanted to play, you survived hard obstacles to achieve what you set out to do - get into university, I presume you are working hard to finish it. You are living your life very well. If you are inspired by John Carmack, set your goals for the next phase of your life based on his achievements but you are not in a race with John Carmack (or anyone else). You cannot have a race with someone when their landscape is completely different from yours. Good luck :)