having ADHD I really cant express how frustrating it is knowing that others are able to simply choose to maintain focus on something. i have never had the abil

having ADHD I really cant express how frustrating it is knowing that others are able to simply choose to maintain focus on something. i have never had the ability to control that. sometimes it happens, and i never get to choose when it happens. what could i have accomplished in my life if i had the power to choose to focus on one thing for more than a couple of minutes? i could have accomplished a lot more than i have accomplished, i assure you of that. once in a while, maybe 2-3 times per year, my brain starts focusing on something i want or need to focus on, and this is an absolutely magical time for me. i progress toward my goals on that topic so quickly when this happens, and i learn so much, but it never lasts. subsequently, i have a lot of shallow understanding of many things that i have been able to focus on previously, and almost zero deep understanding on anything, because the power to focus usually only lasts a week or two. i guess this is why ADHD is defined as a disabling medical condition in the US. it really is a severe handicap to one’s abilities.