I have (and still am) part of many toxic communities where I get my dose of dopamine with various forms of trolling and indecent behavior. But I also crave int

I have (and still am) part of many toxic communities where I get my dose of dopamine with various forms of trolling and indecent behavior. But I also crave intellectual discussion and learning, since I am passionate about programming and social science. I have witnessed the spiral of many communities into low-grade discussion, moderation abuse and eventual death, so I feel responsible for maintaining the quality and health of this forum. Many times I have misbehaved, I was given a gentle warning instead of a straight-up ban, which made me feel like the moderators care about the users, which led me to be less motivated about causing chaos. It's really similar to eating a burger vs. eating a nice home cooked meal with a salad, I go to 4chan when I crave the "burger" and I come here for the steak and salad.