Everything you have written is completely logical. My brain knows that most spiders are harmless, and have zero interest in humans, and that dying from a spide

Everything you have written is completely logical. My brain knows that most spiders are harmless, and have zero interest in humans, and that dying from a spider bite is rare. On one hand I think they are beautiful and fascinating, and on the other hand I am completely repulsed at the thought of a spider being in my house. Not only that, but if I see a spider before or while I am eating I am unable to eat. I know how irrational that is. We generally leave our porch light off so as not to attract bugs (because they are food for spiders), but recently it was left on for whatever reason. When my son opened the door a medium-sized wolf spider ran inside and stopped. Just as my son was about to step on it I noticed that it was a mother carrying many baby spiders on her back. Stepping on her could have been a disaster. I watched as he coaxed her into an empty cereal box. I was close enough to see her babies moving and shifting on her back. Once secured inside the box we had a choice to make. Set her free out in the yard somewhere or into the toilet. After a brief conversation we decided that a watery grave would prevent her offspring from entering our house in the future. Events like this take up too much space in my head. This is the only thing I am afraid of. I am not afraid of snakes and the usual other suspects. Just spiders. I am mostly unafraid of granddaddy longlegs spiders, and will sometimes liberate them, sans a leg or two, from feline captivity. Anyway, I do not even remember what my point was now..but your experience is certainly interesting to me as I have, at times, considered learning my way out of this fear I have. I really admire that you are now able to handle these little creatures and even enjoy them! I would love to feel unafraid instead of literally terrified. I am actually sweating now after recalling that spider incident above.