I have 'some autism' as in self-diagnosed a few years back when someone else on the spectrum asked me flat out and said they're certain I'm on the spectrum. It'

I have 'some autism' as in self-diagnosed a few years back when someone else on the spectrum asked me flat out and said they're certain I'm on the spectrum. It's funny I also have ADHD (diagnosed at 38) and I watch youtube channels by people with autism/adhd on how to cope, and a lot of the 'coping' skills or masking things people do to fit in, I've organically discovered on my own and have used just naturally since I was a kid. Like, I couldn't stand being in class listening to the teacher, I never ever listened, instead I just read ahead, guessed and completed the homework assignment, and never had homework in high school because of it. My ADHD brain has kept me poor mixed w/ depression, but I feel my logical autistic side sometimes balances it out, and makes me think before doing something stupid/spontaneous. Like I sometimes forget things, so I create rituals when I do forget something, so I don't do it again. Example: I left my keys in car back in 2003, had a bunch of latino guys helping me in SLC try and break into my own car. Since that day, I never turn the car off until I've got one foot out the door, as a reminder the keys are still in ignition because it's running. Lost my wallet once, and now I always put it in the same pocket, and the same place at home when not in my pants. There's some things not great about autism, especially higher up on the spectrum, but maybe evolution sometimes has hiccups before it gets things right. Sometimes I think autism is more a blessing than a curse, and there definitely are many great minds who probably were on the spectrum. It could be an evolutionary leap eventually, I hate how people always call it a disorder or negative. Yeah, okay if you're non-verbal or something yeah that's not great, but if you're just very pithy when talking about a topic you're interested in, and have a weird sense of humor (snarky redditors - as I'm convinced reddit is literally the social network for autists), and a little ocd but not clinically so, then it's not all bad. ADHD on the other hand, I could really do without. I'm on wellbutrin for depression which raises dopamine, and vyvanse for ADHD which also raises dopamine, and my ability to focus and get motivated has skyrocketed since I started it a few months back, but before that my life was miserable. I'm making 7k monthly now freelancing, I made 7k last year because I was anxious, depressed, and had fatigue from long-covid. I just had panic attacks even thinking about prospecting for new clients. I had one good one but she was sporadic, and she recommended me to my new client who's awesome and gives me 40+ hours per week. Though, I probably should raise my rates... I'm a USA dev, freelancer with 10 years experience in laravel and right now I'm doing django/python stuff and still only charging $40 (same as I did like 4 years ago)... minimum wage has gone up like $10 in a lot of places either by force, or by competition. It's amazing though what the right medical cocktail gets you.