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I have made a process for doing pen drawings involving bitmap to SVG conversion. It's called Robot Draws You! and it's been in perpetual limbo for the past few

I have made a process for doing pen drawings involving bitmap to SVG conversion. It's called Robot Draws You! and it's been in perpetual limbo for the past few years as my career has struggled and cratered. I just don't have the time to be able to focus on a creative endeavour when I feel like my world is crumbling around me. I've written multiple versions of the bitmap to SVG converter, I have an XY robot gantry set up and I have a bunch of plans and schematics drawn up to diagram how it all works. Getting the focused time to be fully "plugged in" to the project is impossible when every day I'm freaked out about how I will pay the bills, will I ever get a job, will I lose everything tomorrow. Additionally I feel intense shame for having worked on this thing for "years" and still not having any significant progress to report or show. It's a huge embarrassment, but one day I hope it can be something I am proud of.

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cmos 4y ago
I'm sorry about your career - this must have been difficult to write about. Sometimes it's about the journey, take solace that you just might be in a temporary dip in your life adventure. How can some of these setbacks be opportunities?
- dirtybirdnj 4y ago
  I'm not sure how a loss of free time, loss of mental stability and potential loss of everything I've achieved thus far in life are "possible opportunities". Bad things happen to good people. There is no fairness in life or the world. Either you have impressed some rich people and are privileged to enjoy life, or you suffer because nobody fucking cares and nobody is coming to save you. So far the only good thing to come of the current trash fire of my life is that I quit drinking alcohol. I am still a mess / wreck of a human being but at least I'm more coherent and aware of how bad everything sucks. Really makes me want to drink.

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cmos 4y ago

I'm sorry about your career - this must have been difficult to write about. Sometimes it's about the journey, take solace that you just might be in a temporary dip in your life adventure. How can some of these setbacks be opportunities?

dirtybirdnj 4y ago
I'm not sure how a loss of free time, loss of mental stability and potential loss of everything I've achieved thus far in life are "possible opportunities". Bad things happen to good people. There is no fairness in life or the world. Either you have impressed some rich people and are privileged to enjoy life, or you suffer because nobody fucking cares and nobody is coming to save you. So far the only good thing to come of the current trash fire of my life is that I quit drinking alcohol. I am still a mess / wreck of a human being but at least I'm more coherent and aware of how bad everything sucks. Really makes me want to drink.