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It was the same for me. Every single day, morning to night endlessly looping in the back of my head. But one day it simply stopped. I’d boarded a plane and mov

It was the same for me. Every single day, morning to night endlessly looping in the back of my head. But one day it simply stopped. I’d boarded a plane and moved to another country, and the moment I touched down, I realized this is where I was meant to be. Some people really are just born into an environment or culture that isn’t meant for them, and sometimes you really can just run away from a problem. Sometimes these thoughts do come back, but they’re brought about by extreme stress and last just hours. Maybe at most once or twice a year. Far, far better than it being the first and last thing I thought every single day for most of my life. Almost a decade since that day and it’s been almost nothing but peace inside my mind.

implements 4y ago
If it’s not too intrusive, may I ask which country and what you like about it?
tempxyz 4y ago
Happy for you.
mandarax8 4y ago
I've been thinking of doing that for a while as well, but I fear it will only exacerbate the loneliness and that I will turn into recluse. I'm a very sociable person, I just have trouble getting out of the house, talking to new people and making plans with people (how weird would it be for me to ask them to do something with me, after all if they wanted to they would have asked me right? Doesn't make any sense I know but I still can't get over it). That and the fact that I barely have any money saved up (working for <1/2 year). Meanwhile the thoughts are there every day, growing the stronger the more I'm alone. But when I'm with people I feel like I don't fit in, don't want to be there and the more time I spend alone.
- grapeskin 4y ago
  I had extreme social anxiety (would only go shopping minutes before closing time or the moment they opened to make sure I was the only person in the store) and had just enough money to buy a plane ticket and hotels for a week. I’m still generally solitary, but have no worries about being outside and around people and money is no concern either. Pushing yourself far outside of your comfort zone can be a massive shock to your brain that forced you to adapt quickly. If you’re going somewhere with a job already lined up, savings aren’t really a problem. Outside of the US, most employers are eager to help you get your living situation set up. Plus, as a foreigner, you’re somewhat exempt from social norms. People judge you less harshly for minor cultural things. Eventually you’ll adapt, and at that point people will generally accept you as one of them. It’s easy to worry about the negatives, but for the most part, living in another country is generally a good experience for self-growth. There are undeniably hard times, but it’s easier to overcome them outside of your home country due to your brain switching to survival mode and having less time for trivial anxieties.

implements 4y ago

If it’s not too intrusive, may I ask which country and what you like about it?

tempxyz 4y ago

Happy for you.

mandarax8 4y ago

I've been thinking of doing that for a while as well, but I fear it will only exacerbate the loneliness and that I will turn into recluse. I'm a very sociable person, I just have trouble getting out of the house, talking to new people and making plans with people (how weird would it be for me to ask them to do something with me, after all if they wanted to they would have asked me right? Doesn't make any sense I know but I still can't get over it). That and the fact that I barely have any money saved up (working for <1/2 year). Meanwhile the thoughts are there every day, growing the stronger the more I'm alone. But when I'm with people I feel like I don't fit in, don't want to be there and the more time I spend alone.

grapeskin 4y ago
I had extreme social anxiety (would only go shopping minutes before closing time or the moment they opened to make sure I was the only person in the store) and had just enough money to buy a plane ticket and hotels for a week. I’m still generally solitary, but have no worries about being outside and around people and money is no concern either. Pushing yourself far outside of your comfort zone can be a massive shock to your brain that forced you to adapt quickly. If you’re going somewhere with a job already lined up, savings aren’t really a problem. Outside of the US, most employers are eager to help you get your living situation set up. Plus, as a foreigner, you’re somewhat exempt from social norms. People judge you less harshly for minor cultural things. Eventually you’ll adapt, and at that point people will generally accept you as one of them. It’s easy to worry about the negatives, but for the most part, living in another country is generally a good experience for self-growth. There are undeniably hard times, but it’s easier to overcome them outside of your home country due to your brain switching to survival mode and having less time for trivial anxieties.