I cannot remember a time in my adulthood where I didn't feel like I was behind, it was too late to start whatever random thing I was thinking of. And then I get

I cannot remember a time in my adulthood where I didn't feel like I was behind, it was too late to start whatever random thing I was thinking of. And then I get older and look back and think that of course I could've started then. I say this with as much sincerity as can be transmitted through text on a screen. It is not too late. You're experiencing grief of the loss of your startup. That's going to take time to heal. You will have more successes. You will feel differently than you do now. Take some time to heal, and take care of yourself. There is a bright future ahead for you.