I’ve felt that anxiety but I wouldn’t call it ambition. Ambition is me wanting to better myself, to have more opportunities, and to achieve my purpose in life.

I’ve felt that anxiety but I wouldn’t call it ambition. Ambition is me wanting to better myself, to have more opportunities, and to achieve my purpose in life. The anxiety is a white knuckle feeling that makes me keep my head down and and makes me scared to take risks. While risk avoidance can be beneficial, it hasn’t propelled me nearly as far as wanting to be or do something great. Maybe there is a kind of fear of being nothing in there somewhere, but that’s not what anxiety feels like to me either. To me, anxiety often has no identifiable cause. Sometimes it’s a vague feeling of having done something wrong or not being good enough combined with a feeling of tension or stress. I find working enjoyable because it distracts me from the feeling, but I also have many other enjoyable distractions that aren’t related to work.