My friend, I understand this experience is very real and painful to you, but to me and others who might be reading this message, you appear to be displaying sig

My friend, I understand this experience is very real and painful to you, but to me and others who might be reading this message, you appear to be displaying signs of schizophrenia. I've read through this and other messages you've posted on HN, and I'm being reminded of the writings of Terry A Davis, another programmer who used to post on HN who believed he could speak to God through the operating system he was developing all by himself. I would encourage you to read up on Terry, and to consider seeking psychological help. I understand that may be difficult to contemplate, but Terry ended up dying by being struck by a train while walking on train tracks; he was either so out of his mind that he didn't see or hear the train coming, or he committed suicide. It would be tragic if a similar fate befell you.